adventures update

this grimastimes movie watching is tough! there is just so much going on it is hard to find time for ALL THE MOVIES! but don't worry. there is house-cleaning time, decorating time, wrapping time, baking time. and those times have gotten me a long way. tada!!

by far the best part was the day i spent watching WITH ms melanie & gretcheroo.
and what remains, then?

jingle all the way - which i am dreading...
the family stone
the grinch who stole christmas - which probs i should watch with the family
8 women - which i know nothing about
die hard
a christmas story

okay, bye! grimastime! gotta go!!

saved my life

dance dance, christmastime. this weekend the christmas party deluge began. christmastime snuck up so fast, i'm scrambling to catch up on the christmastime spirit. here's some help.





HAPPY HOLIDAYS, ELFS!

afterchristmas

it is now afterchristmas, and of course, as always, there are the afterchristmas sohappyi'msads and all of my bones get all up and upons with the hoorayness and the hurt.

i've been saving the prefall collections for now. knowing that nothing gets into my heart and pushes around the sorrow of being joyful quite like prefall. knowing i shouldn't waste it on the jumping energy of prechristmas.

i went to a party tonight where i saw people i haven't seen in too long and where two people had just got engaged and where there was a little little boy with the blondest blonde hair who just wanted the adults to 'stop sneaking up' on him. i wore the really dark purpleredwine lipstick i've been meaning to wear all holiday but have been too lazy to deal with. because i was inspired again by this. ports. and by a very good playlist.

 {prefall ports 1961 2013, photos courtesy of ports 1961 by way of style.com}

saved my life

merry merry, everyone. all the folks are home and oh how wonderful it is.



happy monday. happy christmas. happy life.

home

TODAY!!!

MAYBE I AM EXCITED TO GO HOME...

{borrowed from here}

love these cooks.

{i am a cookie}

i was gonna write about my total full-body empathy-sickness problem and the shooting of the small humans and the utter impotence of words right now, especially ones like 'enough' and 'change' and 'devestation' and... but then i read this onion piece and it says it all better than anything or anyone else....

so i cuddled my dog a lot and made cookies instead. because i could only throw up from complete sadness so many times. and also it is the christmas time. and who the fuck am i to think that i have any right to this nauseous cloying anger when there are 20 families that had their children murdered yesterday...

so. the cookies. then.

{and gin, too. and specialdeer for me, danny, sarah and adam.}

grandma's candy bowls

{borrowed from here}

sometimes (maybe around the holidays, say) do you sit in bed at night not being able to sleep and just crying happytears because the love that you have in you for the humans in your life is just too much to handle? and you think about them one by one and you're just trying to keep it together because holy holy holy god, how did you get so lucky and where on earth did they come from? and you can't, in this moment, even fathom being anything but happy and filled with love - even though you know you surely will feel sad or tired or mad or nothing soon enough, but right now it just doesn't even make sense to feel just exactly like this joyloveexplode?

skate away

{borrowed from here & here}

  

it is not winter here. not even close. it is barely even fall some days. yesterday? it was 12 degrees.

even though i am calling this city mine, there is still a whole lot of edmonton in my bones that i can't shake out. and those edmonton bits think that it can't be december, it can't be advent, without the cold. the snow. the crinkly-freeze-your-nosehairs-when-you-inhale kind of cold. toronto doesn't understand this cold even a little. which makes it hard for me to understand how toronto can understand christmas at all. i think it does it all wrong.

i can't wait to be home. where christmas is the realest thing. i've been spending time with wintery images to fill the hole in my winter-heart.

 {borrowed from here & here}

 {borrowed from here & here & here}

 {borrowed from here & here}

 {borrowed from here & here & here}

{borrowed from here & here}

arts

purchase post! here's the final of the christmas-giftcard-purchases. from the jeff! fantastic art supplies for to make the drawings with. ink! remember inks? i do. i loved them back in the day. and then i forgot. but now i remember again. and also. a desk easel! because the one emma bought me way waaay back is in edmonton and needs some repair. and desk-easel technology has come a long way. and then i drew some stuff and things for to warm up my drawing muscles which are very much out of practise.

iphone-d holidays

sooooo many photos of so many good memories. starting things off with the iphone-hipstamatic-edition!

erinagain

 

oh hmm. the tricky time that is the start of a new year. how do i go about writing about the new year without writing a NEW YEAR'S post? without being contradictory? shall i look back or forward, or both?

you'll maybe remember me saying, last year, that i hated resolutions. but then, of course, i went ahead a made a few loose, undefined ones, anyways. and now i look back at all those things i said i'd do (make art being the big one...) and didn't... and i'd be sad about it, except that i'm not. i wish i'd done more with last year. surely. sure. but. it wasn't for lack of wanting or trying. (not completely, at least.) it just happened that last year came along and kicked me super super hard in the teeth, and the eye, and stepped on my wrist, and took all my money, and spit on me... so... i had that to deal with. instead. of making art.

blah blah! see? sigh. new year's posts are gross! ugh. okay! but there is a point. a non-lament-y point. and it is a good one, so keep on keeping-on!

i could be looking back and thinking about all those not-done things. but. instead what i'm doing right now is i'm thinking: good gosh i'm happy. here. now. so happy. i made it through that beating and it was the worst that i've been through yet, and i'm hoping it will be the worst ever (fingers crossed i be so lucky), but really it is over and gone and i am happy. so. whatever! haha! sometimes i will live better and sometimes i will be lazy and cranky, but right now is good. (and compartmentalizing everything into little year packages with beginnings and ends is a bit silly anyways... what with the fluidity of everything and whatnot. as much as i love to compartmentalize.)

this is the first time since i started living 'away' i can remember being happy to come home after christmas. i miss everyone and it was grand. i wish we could do it more. but i'm not reeling in post-holiday-tragi-sads. i missed my life here. i am home here. i started taking down my decorations last night and even THAT didn't make me sad! because life after christmas is magic too.

and that is something new. so. new year! happy! there.

 {also, because i have a real job now, i got a christmas bonus! most of it is going towards dept-repayment... but a little bit is buying me a chloe sevigny for opening ceremony monokini. because my old bathing suit got stolen and because it is the most awesomest replacement ever.}

{pictures from style.com and openingceremony}

ring in, ring in

new year. new agenda... my beloved red moleskines. they've done me well for the last three years...

there is much to say about 2011: mostly bad, sure, but brilliant at the end. i will try to say those things in the upcoming days. meanwhile. i'm going to try and find something champagne-like in the parental's basement. ring in 2012 quietly and happily at home with these magic people. xo.

pup around the village

margene post!!!! HAHAHAHAHA! she is endlessly hilarious. no jokes. (all jokes...) man i love that dog.

warm glow

i've been hunting the last two weeks for a work gift-exchange challenge: a used copy of a favourite kid's christmas book. challenge indeed! see, most of the books i loved most are out of print and crazy hard to find... i had ordered 'morriss's disappearing bag' on amazon, but then instead of shipping it, the seller canceled my order after a few days. jerk. i was all in a panic.

but. oh! then! yesterday! just in time!

i found the greatest thing at seeker's books on bloor!

remember this gem?! i had forgotten. i loved this book so so so much. and the person receiving this book has a little boy and a little girl... and he's from winnipeg, so there's a bit of prairie in their blood. oh. it is perfect. i'm so so happy about finding it. i almost started to cry in the bookstore cause my heart got so big so fast...

i can't wait to be home for christmas. i can't wait. it is the most magical thing.

holiday times at bikini village

finally! y'alls about to get hit with a few photo-posts. bikini village is in order! it is clean and decorated and photo ready! (or it was last weekend. it's a bit untidy again. maybe i'll do something about that today...)

 {we had a little drop-in thang. there was food and drink and peeps.}

{sarah jay brought me this most wonderful magic little tree! nightmare before christmas meets the grinch. sooooooo fantastic. she's the best.}

i love my home SOOOOO MUCH! finally finally finally. i feel like i am home in this place and in this city. it is the best. love love.